CaRica Craze ~ Breathe Away

Simplicity

Friday, January 22, 2010,11:36 AM

Another new blog skin done.
This time, i aimed for simplicity in my design.

Throw in an anime couple picture, some words and a cut out design.
And u will get this simple, clean, blogger layout.
So i hope u like it.

Well, on the side note.
I feel like a clay doll, at times, im so helpless.
Each day, i try to be better, yet so careless.
I wish to change, and hopefully someday i would change.

Someday. Somehow.
I hope i can be accepted fully as i am.

That is my only wish for now.

New Year, New Beginning

Wednesday, January 13, 2010,9:48 PM

Hello 2010!
Im back into the world of blogging!
Ahaha, ehem so here goes ...

They say every new year has its new beginning.
Mine has just begun, or rather, its getting there, im doing it.

New year resolutions, that is.
A new me, a better me, a wiser me, all in this new year 2010.

For starters, i really have to pump it up.
Head to the gym, the stadium.
Lose some much needed kilos.
And then, to the mall, for new clothes.
New makeup, new perfume, new everything.

Well, ima get there sooner or later.
You can bet on it.

For now, enjoy my new blogskin.
I hope you like it.

Goodbyes For The Moment

Tuesday, September 1, 2009,8:18 AM

Goodbye.
I wont be blogging for a while to come.

I wont even be online much.

Today is the last day, my vodaphone net usage will end tommorow.

But i'll still be online at times when im free, just not always anymore.

To you know who, thanks for helping me lots with this vodaphone thingie.
Without you, i couldnt even get online the way i did these past few days.
I get to talk to others, do stuff and watch animes like time never exsisted at all.

Thank you so much.

To my dearest friend from overseas, im glad u've been honest with ur heart.
You're a strong person, you did the right thing, i am proud of you.
Continue to cherish ur loved ones, take care and be happy always.

Cause you deserved it.
Thank you for everything.

And finally, soon it'll be the holidays.
I wish all my blog readers a very happy coming festive season!

Will be blogging again, in the time to come.
Till then, best wishes all.

Good luck in everything you do.

So long, cya soon!

Lately In Life

Thursday, August 27, 2009,9:15 PM

I havent been blogging again lately..

I'm tired.
Really really, tired.
As in, worn out tired.

The time in my days are filled outdoors mostly.
Working, and constantly improving myself.

You know who just spoke to me, saying his condition is getting better.
Not really fully better, but better, as in under control.
For someone like him, having and being able to endure such a thing for many years,
I'm sure it wasnt easy.
I looked up to him, as my strength,
For he had taught me something valuable in life,
Which is to believe in yourself and never give up.

Soon, it'll be the start of a new month.
And yes, my birthday is coming.
Last year, was wonderful.
I'll never forget it.
Having spent the entire day with you know who, going to five different places,
Eating, watching two movies together, and just simply having fun,
The kind of fun, i could never have anymore with my family.
Im grateful for him, for brightening up my life.
For giving me a reason to live.

On the side note,
Im worried about a dear friend.
I hope she's okay.
She did the right thing, in being honest with herself.
Rather that to live a lie just to make others happy,
Im proud of her, i know its not easy.
But still, love cant be force,
Love is wonderful when its sincere.
And only time, will heal the wounds.

So dont feel bad,
You are not alone.
Im with you, always.

And now, as time approaches ten,
It's time for me to be ready for bed.
Tommorrow is another day,
A day like any other day,
A day that i will make the best of.

Cause u can never turn back time,
Thats why,
I try to cherish every moment spend,
In each and every day.

Family

Tuesday, August 25, 2009,3:58 PM

Every single person in this world agrees that family means everything.
Family is where you'll always have a place to come back too.
Accepting you regardless for the way you are, as one of their own.
Always supporting u in good or bad times.

Yes family.
Dear sweet family.

Families are wonderful, yet sadly, not all are united like that.
Mine, is one of those, whom have all made other families of their own.

Yes, life has to move on.
Yet, at times, i wished for there to be one day...
Just one day...
When everyone was together again, sitting, having dinner together, chatting, laughing...

But...
That wont ever happen anymore for my family...
Ever since dad's left this world...
I cant help feeling... really sad...
Even as i type this...
Tears are building up in my eyes...

I just wanted to have my family together again...
But it can never happen...
You cant always have everything u want in this world...
I know that well...

Time will soon past, and i will soon be living alone with my mom...
I'll work much harder when that time comes...
Be prepared for anything...

I hope someday, i could find happiness once more...
Happiness with a new family...

Our Catching Up Day & My Plans

Monday, August 24, 2009,7:04 PM

Ohh Ahh Whut Whoa!
Lol we've been spamming these lots today!
Here's what happen. :)

So uhh, i got online earlier, went in facebook.
I was at the gym by the way, was working out on my legs with the mini cycler.
And i could play the comp, cause my hands are free.
So i went to pet society in facebook.

And as i arranged my pet's house, i looked at the right corner of facebook.
Emma was online, and her status was, umm drawing grafitti for jan.
So i talked to her, wished her good luck in drawing.

And and and then...
A simple chat turned to a crazeh chat! xD

Yes indeed!

We talked like 2 retard kids whom have just met after 10 years of seperation lols!
Haaha it was so much fun, im so happy and i cant help giggling away! :D
Im glad i could listen to her problems and helped her out.
It's the least i could do for her, i rly wish for her to be happy always! :)

After that, i hurried home and went to cook dinner!
Today i cooked chicken rice! With salad, which i ate lots of and lesser rice and chicken.
And dont worry you know who, i ate more salad than rice!
So im still good and maintaining my weight. :D

On the side note...

Phobia 2 is coming soon in cinemas!
The super crazy and super scary horror triller thai movie is coming out soon in sg!
I've watched Phobia 1 before, and i must say, it gives me nightmares and i cant sleep at night!
But you know who likes it lots, and he's been looking forward to seeing this soon!

Gah!
I guess when that time comes, i'll be doing more of his arm hugging in the cinemas for sure!
No complains there, of course! xD

And now, time for me to go rest.

Then i'll be continue-ing to jog like crazeh for 1 more hour.
I cant wait to rub it in my future in law faces when i come visit them this festive season!

Ha! Take that! In ur faces! D:
Oooh im so excited to see their mouths and jaws drop to the ground! xD

I cant wait! Hehee! xD

Thnking & Improving Self

Saturday, August 22, 2009,9:10 PM

Hmm...
I've been thinking lots lately.

Even now, as i sit here on a comfy cushion in the living room of my little adorable old house while typing this, i am thinking...

And OMG my sissy is bck with her hubby and baby. -.-
They went to break fast in bro in law's mama house.
Not that i cared really, so yea, wadever lurh. -.-
But still, they came in at 9:12 pm, come home so fast!
Noooo why?, i thought to myself.
"She kept crying la", bro in law said.
Zzz...
There goes my quiet atmosphere...

Anyways...
What came in my thoughts lately is just the things in life.
Things like, relationships, family, job, health and my overall self being...

I had to go though many tests in those areas recently...
And every single one of them were challenging.
But, at the end of the day...
I felt so... plain.

Why plain?
Because...
Though im good in designing online avatars and characters and such...
Im a failure in my own personal grooming and style!
Ahhh! I need serious help... x.x

However, as i shall be out from poverty at the end of this month...
I take it as an opportunity to shop for a new stylish wardrobe! :)
Perhaps even get to go out shopping with you know who!
Then maybe even go to the lady's department...
And you know who's gotta tag along, even though he's a guy ehehe...
And it'll be so much fun! ><
I really hope so, im very much looking forward to it!

Ahh but first, my tummy nids to firm up. -.-
And so is my waist, face, arms, thighs, etc...

Let's sweat it out these coming days baybeh!

Ouuuuh yeah! xD